Director‘s Statement

Do the pains vary in size? Does sadness have its shape? Can people hear voices from afar or feel the other's pain? Perhaps these questions require us to examine our psyches and to also face trauma and disappointment from our memories, but when we gaze at our souls, we can feel that there isn’t too much difference between them and those of others. Even though we experience loss and grief as humans, we still want to feel every breeze of the wind, every ray of the sun, and every drop of rain on this land. Just like the very first time a child strides across the field. He only had butterflies, beauty, and tranquilly in his spiritual world. 

My childhood memories in my hometown offered me the ability to dream and to capture the beauty in things. But at the same time, terrible things are happening, which forces me to face the ambivalence of joy and sadness. Therefore, I go back to the village where I was born and raised, taking photos to reconstruct reminiscences when the actual space of "hometown" no longer exists. In this process, I aim to present how people are dealing with their loss in life.

The film narration is mostly performed with static images. For me, the grainy black-and-white film images are closer to the human subconscious from a sensory point of view. The interpenetration of trauma in human memory and present reality is presented using a combination of photos and close-ups. In terms of sound, the sound elements are repressed, resulting in dislocation, separation, and decomposition of the original sound of things. The sounds of the explosion in the film are decomposed to the past and the present narrative space. Henceforth, I investigate how trauma enters one's subconscious and interacts with reality to comprehend what one feels when faced with loss: mixed emotions of joy and sadness.

 

Nowadays people are faced with unpredictable destinies. Our souls are trapped in this fragile skin helplessly like children. But still, we can start by trying to understand our past, understanding what happened in life, and exploring the inner world of ourselves.